Conversation with mom

So finally I told my mom why I used to come so late these days. I didnt tell my mom about MAM and Genesis Film Project till yesterday because I knew what would be her reaction. Anyways I had to tell her about this.

When I used to come late home I just gave her one reason that "I am working". Thats it. She didnt asked further and I didnt say further. Yesterday while I was telling her about Genesis she said, "I thought you were earning?". I said, "No ma I told you I was working. Its an NGO and I ve volunteered for it". "But you could ve worked for some company and earned enough to buy books for your next semester". "I thought you were earning".

Now that really hurts and didnt know how to convince her. But I managed to assure her that the time and energy I an devoting to this huge project will be paid off in future someway or the other. But as soon as I said the word "future" she got kind of pissed off and told me, "Son I know your future is bright. You got a job and that too you ve got an option to choose, but what about the present?"....

I really didnt want to hear anything further and get lost at that moment. But I had to go through all this. Its funny although, because I am glad I listened to her. Now I feel she dumped all that was inside her mind yesterday and probably she must be feeling alright now.

I always had this feeling that I should ve an alternate or backup skill that I can use in case of fucked-up times or just to earn some extra bucks. Anything that I ve learned has helped me somehow or the other directly or indirectly. I ve met so many interesting people through the Genesis film project which wouldnt have been possible atall if I had decided not to work for it. This experience is so invaluable and I feel lucky to be associated with this project. This is the only thing that drives me to do new things in life. But also at the same time, life has taught me one of the greatest things- DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE. Its kind of contradicting but I guess no one can deny the fact!
And yes at the end of conversation I told my mom that do not expect me to be successful always...just dont have huge expectations.... My mom chuckled and said," I am glad you are learning about life, son." Phew